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[feedeslilas]

i am having a bad day and instead of leaving work early in a huff or talking 3 xanax or browsing fanfiction on my phone in the bathroom for the next hour, i am going to make a whiney post here and then be done with it so i can go back to being a productive member of society.

i desperately wish i wasn’t as sensitive as i am and i have gotten better about that, but not good enough, and i just really wish other people didn’t have so much power over my emotions. i wish i didn’t immediately see betrayal and aggression in what is usually forgetfulness and apathy. i wish i put more effort into building friendships so that i wasn’t so reliant on my like... 3~ people. i wish i could act my age. i wish i was braver and more exciting and made people want to be around me. i wish i wasn’t out of weed. 

there its done the end back to your regularly scheduled programming 

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