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 i'm feeling incredibly blargh rn b/c long story short, it was an incredibly stupid idea to throw a party the weekend before christmas because it turns out, most people spend it with their """families""" and can't come over. so now i'm sitting here waiting for my brother to come bc of course he was free and i'm gonna have to explain to him why he's the only guest. i cannot believe this kind of bullshit still happens to me it's like middle school never ends. 

hopefully i'll get REAL FUCKING DRUNK and idk? idek what would possibly improve this but i just want it to be over. i can't bring myself to clean or get ready like i'm in sweatpants. :-/ 

in the interest of not collapsing into a puddle of tears, here are some good things that i should be grateful for:

• i am doing well at work. 
• i made some yummy cream cheese sugar cookies.
• part two of corset!enjolras fic is going well.
• i have a bottle of wine and eggnog and bourbon.
• i have a home with a warm bed and my cat is healthy and i have money to blow on baking supplies and i have a family who cares about me 
• next week is christmas and i get a day off and presents and lasagna