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Dec. 24th, 2018 09:15 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
feedeslilaswell. it has been a weekend.
there are good things to share (cookies! friendship! having the apartment to yourself and doing chores naked!) and also not great ones, like homophobic families. why does it always feel like Everything Happens So Much, like you have weeks of nothing and then in 24 hours everything starts to shift? I am getting better at realizing when the world is actually ending and when i’m just having a lot of feelings and need to have a snack and do something mindless. i am not so good at getting myself off my ass. i had not had a full day in bed in a very long time and then yesterday just hit me and i forgot all my ~coping mechanisms~ and just lay there like a dead animal. i’m telling myself that it wasn’t totally a dead day bc i did like 2 chores.
the idea of of going to work and then going shopping and then going home and socializing and going to church and then eating 500 courses... is deeply unappealing but there’s nothing to do but soldier through it. stiff upper lip, etc. etc.
it’s christmas so there will be good things! just have to get to them
there are good things to share (cookies! friendship! having the apartment to yourself and doing chores naked!) and also not great ones, like homophobic families. why does it always feel like Everything Happens So Much, like you have weeks of nothing and then in 24 hours everything starts to shift? I am getting better at realizing when the world is actually ending and when i’m just having a lot of feelings and need to have a snack and do something mindless. i am not so good at getting myself off my ass. i had not had a full day in bed in a very long time and then yesterday just hit me and i forgot all my ~coping mechanisms~ and just lay there like a dead animal. i’m telling myself that it wasn’t totally a dead day bc i did like 2 chores.
the idea of of going to work and then going shopping and then going home and socializing and going to church and then eating 500 courses... is deeply unappealing but there’s nothing to do but soldier through it. stiff upper lip, etc. etc.
it’s christmas so there will be good things! just have to get to them
